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Taking a Leap | Working from home and writing an eBook

I swore I'd never live by a calendar. But in today's world, it is almost impossible. Time moves so quickly. I never understood what older generations meant when they'd talk about how quickly time flies by these days. Our schedules are full, our lives our full, our hands are full....and hopefully our hearts are full too.

With so many responsibilities and 'to-do's' in our lives, it leaves little room for us to actively take leaps of faith -- even the littlest ones. We have to think to ourselves, "How will this affect my life? How will this affect my family? How will it impact my schedule?...my finances?"

The sad thing is, we often know the steps that we're supposed to take in life, yet we choose to continue praying about them over and over and over again, making big ordeals out of them -- even long after God has said "just do it". Why do we do that? Don't we realize how even more complicated it makes our lives until God can divert us onto another path?

A year ago this July, I made the decision to take a large pay cut and work strictly from home. I knew that God's design for my household was simple -- be a homemaker, a mother, and a teacher. We knew that we wanted to homeschool, without hesitation. But in order for that to happen, I had to take the plunge and find a 'work from home strategy'. I was terrified. For six months I fretted and groaned about it. I cried -- bawled my eyes out pleading for God to show me the way to make this happen. Over and over again I asked Him the same questions and prayed the same prayer. Finally, I was just downright miserable. Not with my job, but with not knowing what the next step would need to be for my little family. I worried about finances and how it would impact my child's life.

Finally, I made the decision. My husband and I sat down the beginning of June last year and I told him what I felt like God was leading me to do. To take a pay cut and strictly work from home. This means my job title would change, my job description would change, and in essence, my entire career would change. He took a couple of days to think and pray about it, and then told me to take the leap. Take the leap. Those were the words I needed to hear. Why? Because I knew it wasn't going to be the easiest thing to do. It was a leap. A leap of faith that everything would be ok, no matter what the outcome. We knew that we could make it on my change in salary and my husbands semi steady job, seeing as he works for himself. So I took the leap, with my faith in my Savior.

Nothing could have prepared me for the mental and emotional changes that were about to take place in my life. My "job" was ten time harder now than it ever was before. And yet, I had less work. But with less work came more work....if that even makes sense. I now had the stress of being a full time wife, mother and homemaker, along with having a part time job which required me to work during the day, not on my own schedule. This meant nap times were crunch times. I had to choose between getting my work done and getting paid, versus folding clothes and washing dishes. By the way, do you know how hard it is to talk on the phone when a toddler is running around half naked screaming "ahoy, matey!!!"? I had my work cut out for me, and the only thing I could do is accept that this is where God knew I was to be and that I would just have to start building my wings on the way down this free fall.

Flash forward to now. I am just now, one year later, finally feeling comfortable with our decision. Not that I don't love being home and being a homemaker. But it is hard. It is hard having a PT job and being all that you're called to be in your household. It is extremely hard to watch your house fall apart because you don't know how to properly prioritize and clean with a toddler running around the house. It is aggravating when your friends or family members expect you to do and be everything and everywhere at their beckon call because "you stay home and all of that stuff will get done later". No it won't, because I might actually want to be in bed by 3am only to wake up at 6am.

So, what was I saying?

Oh, yes.

I am loving the leap of faith that I took, because I'm slowly feeling the landing under my feet. In the past year, my husbands business has taken off like never before -- totally unexpected, but totally God. In the past 4 months I have been much better at prioritizing and organizing. I'm not going to lie, there were several books that helped me get to the point I am, mainly when it comes to being a homemaker. Much tears, laughter, and prayer as well. This past year has been an incredible learning experience for me. Taking that leap of faith was indeed the best choice for my family and I, no matter how incredibly intimidated I was by it. I trusted in God, and God never failed me.

With that said, we've faced struggles, as I'm certain we'll face in the future as well. We all do, it's inevitable no matter how good or bad of a Christian or person you are. No matter if you take the leap or don't take the leap.

Which brings me to my next leap of faith.

For about 2 years I've felt like I should write a book. Writing is a passion of mine, though I'm not a professional, I have worked in the media industry for 8 years now and I'd like to think I have a little experience in it. Just this past month I've had several people say to me, "you know, you should write a book". And each time the light bulb goes off in my head and I swoosh God into a side corner and say, "hush". But not anymore. It's just a baby leap, but I've decided to write a 7 part series for my other blog, A Godly Marriage in an Ungodly World. This series will then be compiled into a PDF format eBook as well as an Amazon eBook. Not necessarily a "book", per say. But a "book" none-the-less. It's a baby step, and I feel like I should only take a baby step in this area right now. I need more experience and learning in this area, and I feel confident in the decision I've made for this particular book. But it will, eventually, lead me into the larger leap of writing a book.

In the future I hope to write an actual printed paper book, though I'm not sure what it would be about. Some say I should write a book on parenting, but I don't feel confident enough as a mother to write a book on parenting. I still have a LOT to learn in that area. Others comment that I should write about marriage. Though, my husband insists that I write one about my 'life'. And, in all honesty, I think that's what I would prefer. There's a lot to be said about my journey thus far, and I might like to share it with the world...eventually :). Until then, here is the cover to the new eBook. I have only written the introduction, which can be read here.

Maybe there's a leap of faith that you've been struggling with recently, wondering if you should take it or not. In all cases, I urge you to pray without ceasing about it, if you haven't yet done so. If you are married, I would encourage you to speak with your spouse about it and be in one accord, especially if it can affect your marriage, family and finances. If your spouse isn't in agreement with you, continue to pray, and that if it is truly God's will, your spouses heart would be softened and molded into what God has planned for your family.

In closing, take time to read and think about these versus.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;6 in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6 NIV
"Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will." Romans 12:2 NIV
Contrary to what we may think or have been taught, the will of God is not far from us. He longs for us to search His heart and find His will. My Pastor once explained that God is like a father who is playing hide and seek with his children. He hides just enough to make it interesting and a learning experience, but easy enough so that, if they seek Him earnestly, they will find Him. His good, pleasing and perfect will.

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